An Explaination

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Guys, I wanted to explain something to you, on why I didnt leave.
I Honestly dont know what to write apart from this.
This is an old skin, so I know its bad and ugly.

I decided to come back to pmc for a few reasons. I was not attention seeking etc at all. I was going to leave. But all the support
made me feel nice and put a smile on my face. Thought this was not the goal, the day I left, was to play with friends. I was having a bad day and I wasn't hadn't had a good week at all. I thought my skins were bad, at least that's what I had been told. I had been put down about my skins, and weren't happy with them, at least, most of them. So I decided to make a skin stating I was leaving. I thought it wouldn't get any diamonds at all and people would hate me. But that's not what happened. People then thought I was seeking attention or thought I was coming back. I still to this day dislike the skins I make/ made, but I post them anyway I wasn't. I still thought my skins were ugly, but I had been making skins because I was bored and I l found out I loved skinning. People said they appreciated my skins for what they were, but I still hadn't fully decided that I was coming back. So I posted a skin stating about this; I wanted people to know the reason, but it got taken down. I felt terrible, and then, I had a blog post written about me. Im not mentioning names, but I was hurt and that made me feel worse. I felt guilty for days, like I was a no good, attention seeking rat. I felt selfish for it, and wasn't happy again. I thought my skins, were generic and just full on ugly and blegh. I was frustrated that I had tried making so many skins that were bad and generic and full on ugly. I thought I could leave but it wasn't easy, it was very hard to try to. People then started saying: 'You're back, yay!' and I felt bad about that too. Life has been rough for me, people haven't been the best towards me and I've been bullied, so that doesn't help. People had been putting me down the week of that, so I wasn't in an amazing mood. I'm sorry that I had to be like I'm leaving and I had to be like I was leaving. So thank you for that support and I'm so, so, SO, sorry. I don't even know why I wanted to leave now, it was a stupid decision and I'm sorry. I apologize a lot I know, but I just want you to know how truly sorry I am, and all of this is true. I'm not attention seeking in anyway, this is just an explanation and I hope you all will forgive me. )):

Ily, Baibai
- Zahra