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Hey Everyone...
Its been a while, I know. Im sorry for that I honestly never meant to be gone for this long.
Explanation-------
Oh yeah long rant posts wooo
Before you go and get the tomatoes to hit me with, I want to explain why I was gone.
One day I looked at my skins, and I honestly hated them, Everything about them. They are unorignal, boring, and lack.... qualitly. I hated myself for it. I have spent so long to become nohting I enjoy being, and I couldnt live knowing that about myself. So I stopped. I have made skins over these two months, yeah, but I trashed them all. As they just werent anything I wanted to show for myself, Who i wanted to be. I spent most of my time just drawing, something new, something I know I can become better at. Ofcourse I could work and become better at skinning, but when you have worked so hard for years at a time. It just... seems pointless you know? I kinda just... gave up. A lot of people have asked me to make skins for them, and I just couldnt. I felt bad saying no, but when you arent happy with what you would make, its just not worth your time.
So after a while of checking PlanetMinecraft, and wanting to make a skin, I finally did it. Something I kinda like. A little more simple, and not too complex. I feel like thats where I was going wrong. I was trying too hard with the shading, to make it a little more realistic. But now i see that it just didnt look good.
I want to make more skins. Simple as that. I have missed doing it. BUT I dont want to just become what I was again. Like everyone else. Trying to be something im not. TRYING to be number one. I give up. Im just going to be me. Out with the old, in with the new, eh?
Im going to start slow, one/two posts a week, nothing too crazy, I dont want to try too hard and just be the same thing I was before. I might go back and delete everything, but I dont know. Im going to think about it.
So I hope you guys understand. Thank you to everyone whos been there for me, Everyone whos stayed with me though being inactive. I really appreciate it. You guys mean the world to me.
Its been a while, I know. Im sorry for that I honestly never meant to be gone for this long.
Explanation-------
Oh yeah long rant posts wooo
Before you go and get the tomatoes to hit me with, I want to explain why I was gone.
One day I looked at my skins, and I honestly hated them, Everything about them. They are unorignal, boring, and lack.... qualitly. I hated myself for it. I have spent so long to become nohting I enjoy being, and I couldnt live knowing that about myself. So I stopped. I have made skins over these two months, yeah, but I trashed them all. As they just werent anything I wanted to show for myself, Who i wanted to be. I spent most of my time just drawing, something new, something I know I can become better at. Ofcourse I could work and become better at skinning, but when you have worked so hard for years at a time. It just... seems pointless you know? I kinda just... gave up. A lot of people have asked me to make skins for them, and I just couldnt. I felt bad saying no, but when you arent happy with what you would make, its just not worth your time.
So after a while of checking PlanetMinecraft, and wanting to make a skin, I finally did it. Something I kinda like. A little more simple, and not too complex. I feel like thats where I was going wrong. I was trying too hard with the shading, to make it a little more realistic. But now i see that it just didnt look good.
I want to make more skins. Simple as that. I have missed doing it. BUT I dont want to just become what I was again. Like everyone else. Trying to be something im not. TRYING to be number one. I give up. Im just going to be me. Out with the old, in with the new, eh?
Im going to start slow, one/two posts a week, nothing too crazy, I dont want to try too hard and just be the same thing I was before. I might go back and delete everything, but I dont know. Im going to think about it.
So I hope you guys understand. Thank you to everyone whos been there for me, Everyone whos stayed with me though being inactive. I really appreciate it. You guys mean the world to me.
Also, doodle
